Growing up
I still find it scary

Not too long ago I realised that my bank card is old, it's in a state- swiping has become a 'bitch', if you know what I mean. Now I have to go to a bank, stand in a cue, fill in a form and only then will I get fresh plastic.

About four years ago I was in my mother's care, I was her responsibility. The closest I ever was to indipendence was by doing everything (from university applications to sorting out my bank account) myself.
Even so, I still kept a certified ID copy (hers and mine) in my bag 24/7. Wherever I went and whatever I did, I knew the one document that will get me anything I want was my mothers ID/ID copy.
I had no payslip, no income, no financial history and absolutely not the maturity or experience that comes with being an adult.

I've always said to my friends:"I don't wanna grow up y'all". That was always said in fear of big responsibilities. The thought of having a mortgage, life policies, a house, a car that will need to be maintained, kids, a husband and in-laws to me seems like a life sentence. I mean there just comes a point in life where there is absolutely no turning back, once you reach a certain level you have to stay there or move up (whether mommy has your back or not).

The fun things that come with indipendence are so easy to accept. I go out all night, sleep over at friends' places, consume alchohol and introduce all my friends, male and female to my family without even thinking like I used to back in the day. Maybe it's because I waited for the right time to do all of these things and maybe it's great to be finally able to call my own shots and make my own decisions.

• Getting into a steady relationship
• Seing most of my friends become parents
• Not having to move around with Connie Sedumedi's certified ID copy
• Finally having it within me to stop felling resentment towards my father
• Eating vegetables without going 'nyaaaa'
• Knowing how to step up to someone and introduce myself
• Making a few life changing decisions
• Contraceptives
• Being able to cut frenemies out of my life
• Standing up for myself (personal, professional or gangster)
• Having to submit my CV to a possible employer
• Having someone very cute and innocent ask you if you bought them sweets
• Thinking about marriage and kids
• Having a career
  
  
  Those are just some of the things that just keep on reminding me of how young I'm not getting.I don't know about you but It scares me that I can't play with absolutely no worry in the world, sit back and let my mother do all the thinking for me. I can't chill with a guy and not think : He's got a motive.

Life gets harder and harder with age. I choose to make the best of it but insist on acknowledging how difficult it can be.

Have a blast before you are a parent, enjoy all those little things before you have someone looking up to you and remember that someday, it might not be as easy as it is now or once was.
Let me know how growing up has affected you.